Some Day...

Some day you will have the courage to say I fucked up..

Some day you will see what you gave up, what I now became you know, I moved up.

Some day you will look back and regret that foolery, fuckery down right bullshit

Some day that bitch Karma is going to knock on your door..

And some day, I can only pray for what you may have in store, one day...

For judging me, cursing me, pointing that finger at me, laying that hand on me

Some day you will see that you only made me stronger and that one day

I would become who I am today. Now those some days,
those rainy days, gloomy days, those damn sad days
are sunny, beautiful and happy days

Because now when I think of some day, I am only thinking about loving me

Every piece of pain in me that you caused are now filled with love, and peace

Some days are now new days, new roads, real love, sweet things

A strong woman standing and marching with only the bright future of

some day, some day...

LOVE Is..

It took a lot to get where I am today. Things are not perfect, but I have that sigh of relief and happiness again. Losing my grand mother, going through a bad divorce, and starting a new relationship literally has been a roller coaster. I can honestly say that throughout these experiences I have learned that not everyone is going to accept my choices, my life style or the decisions I have made. But the important thing I learned is to live my life the way I want to, not through anyone else, or how anyone else feels I should live. Coming from a very religious family and background, it was difficult making decisions in my life and my family not accepting me. To this day I have moments where I cry. Who can tell us who to love? Why are you judging me? We cannot help who we fall in love with. Love to me is not defined by gender, status, or race. I am not perfect, and no one is. I have made bad decisions in my life just like the next person. However, I respect those who do not agree with me.

Today I am happy to say that I am in love. I am in love with the most beautiful woman and partner who is amazing to me and my children. I hope one day those who do not accept my lifestyle will see that in the end, you do not have to like it, but be happy that I am happy. My lifestyle changed, but it did not change me as a person or the mother that I am. I am no longer going to live my life as a lie, or in hiding. I am simply going to accept that I will lose certain family members and even friends and I am ok with that. I cannot judge them for having an opinion, since who am I to judge. One thing for sure, is that I found love again and she means the world to me.

Daisy's Child

Hello world! After a year of hiatus, I must say it feels great to write again. I am still very much upset about not getting my original blog account reset. I guess you live and learn. Save your passwords somewhere close, because in my case, I lost the password, and the email I attached to the hosting company is deleted. They would not reset my account for security reasons. Bummer, as I had a year worth of content. I am going to start fresh though and let it go. I know in the end, the point is the writer's block I have had since 2009 is gone..

I have so many things to say now that my mind is a fluttering with thoughts and expressions. The last year has been a rough one for me. But today I can say, I do have that sigh of relief, that hope that things don't stay terrible forever. As I begin this writing journey again, I think of my late grandmother Daisy Loretta Curtis,who through her I have my inspiration to write. And with this new start, I hope she is looking down on me with her big smile. I am her grand daughter, her grand child,-Daisy's child.